I’ve got another confession to make

"—I’m your fool" ~Foo Fighters

Don’t know why but I’ve had that song stuck in my head for days now and it’s a fairly good intro to this entry. Not that I have a confession, rather Isaac and I made some the other day to each other.

He was very attentive Saturday and we ended up going to the birthday party together. This meant we started fielding ‘those questions’ Saturday night. "Oh are you guys dating?" "Are you ‘getting to know each other’? *wink wink*" (yes, they winked, seriously) and of course the questions were followed by the lectures. Dating, co-workers, pasts, etc, were all brought up as concerns.

I took him home.

He worked Sunday but I was off. I got a new digital camera! I’m super excited. It’s the first truly new thing I’ve bought for myself. Most everything else I buy for myself is second hand or used or for work or because I need it. It’s something…new and shiny and …really new!!! *squeeee* But he and I ended up together on Sunday and he spent the night. We talked. I’m known for having an independent streak mostly as a reaction to people trying to control me or my life. He asked where that streak was because he hasn’t seen it. But again, mostly it comes out when it’s provoked and I told him so. Then I went further to confess that part of why I was a bit of pest in the beginning of the week was because I could feel that he was pulling away, bailing on me. He confessed that he kind of was but not voluntarily.

Apparently his family has expressed more than a little concern at my presence in his life.

Turns out he hasn’t gotten divorced from his last wife yet. For financial reasons. But he has left her/she left him, whatever, they’re separated. The way he talks about ‘them’ makes it sound like it was at least a year or so ago but apparently they only got married back in 2008 or so. They’re still technically married. Yeah. I can definitely see why they might be a bit concerned when he suddenly starts spending abnormal amounts of time with a new girl. Of course his brothers are more concerned because we are co-workers. Granted we are only going to be co-workers for a few more months (again, I’m planning to leave the store in the spring depending on how things with the pharmacy continue to progress and the status of my certification). But yeah, so he admitted that he had been trying to listen to their advice and make them happy but then as the week went on he decided he was going to do what made him happy even if his family didn’t necessarily agree. So that’s why he began being his usual attentive self.

He came and saw me at the pharmacy yesterday. I didn’t prompt him. He decided to stop by and visit on his own. My co-workers of course started asking questions like "Is that your new man?" "How did you meet?" "How long have you been dating?" Ugh, last thing I wanted to deal with at work was them curious about me or my social life.

I really want to write more but I have to get ready for work in the next 25 minutes and I’m sitting here in my skivvies fresh out of the shower still. *sigh* So I will try and update later tonight when I get off work.