i’m a mess

i’m still a mess. thus the really crappy penmanship on my part. it’s all i can do to type. the scrapes along my palms make it hard to do anything but use my fingers and even then, limited. the stretching required for capital letters makes my palms burn. it’s not as bad as it was last night. by tomorrow it will be even less. my knee is still a mess in daylight but not as bad either. my elbow is pretty much a non-factor. my ankle is still swollen and sore, it’s hard to put any real weight on it. i am going to try and work today. but i am also going to see if one of the other girls will finish my shift or if someone will come in to work for me once i’m there. i really should be on crutches probably.

they complain about my speed on a normal day, today it’s going to be 10x worse. i can only hobble around; i can’t make a fist without pain so i don’t know how i will manage to open and close safety capped bottles all day or type up prescriptions quickly. damn.

and isaac was no support at all last night. he passed out apparently as soon as he got home from work so he didn’t respond to either of the texts i labored to send last night; one telling him about the fall the other asking him to come and visit me. i had planned on seeing if he’d take me to wal-mart so i could get ice cream. i had every intention of hobbling around on my crutches and/or getting one of the motorized scooters. but i was in no shape to drive last night. not sure how good i’ll be today behind the wheel. i guess we’ll find out.

i need to finish getting ready for work even though i really don’t want to go. i’d rather stay in bed with my foot propped up and iced but that’s not going to happen. really, i’d be okay on hours if i called out, i’m scheduled 36 plus the 2 hours i worked extra on monday so losing one 8 hour shift drops me to 30. like i said though. i’m going to go and try to tough it out for a little while and try to get someone else to work some of my hours. i know one of the girls is supposed to get off at 6, i don’t know if working my 2 hours would put her at overtime or not though but i’ll ask, and i’ll try to call one of the other girls who is off to see if she’d be willing to come in even later in the day for me. i just don’t have their numbers so to make those calls i’d still have to go in.

wish me luck i guess. i’ll let you know what happens tonight when i get back.