i need a nap

I was attempting to nap when Kay called me about going to the Ren Faire. (Yes another one, this one in the neighboring state, about 2 hours drive from here so not too bad and it’s one of the permanent set-up ones, high end and hardcore.) I am now going to the faire next weekend on the 18th. Exciting actually, I love going to faires but I don’t know if we’re going in costume or not. We went to the last one in costume. I’d be cool with it since it’s Irish weekend but I don’t know right now. I’ll see what Kay and her boyfriend (who might be coming with us) want to do and go from there. Either way, a great way to spend my first day off in 2 weeks I say. Plus I think I get my bonus on that week’s paycheck too which would be amazing. I could use my extra $150 on the faire and still pay all my bills.

I like having money!

In other news, I think Quinn is officially a confused person. Several times in the last few weeks he has IMed me only to say he was going to bed within 5-10 minutes of his initial message. I am left sitting there scratching my head and going WTF? You IM me only to bail within minutes of starting the conversation, what is up with you? Ugh. Oh well. I’m not going to waste a lot of time wondering what is wrong with him this time.

Things with Kale are still…. Yeah. He called me for once the other night. We talked for a good 10-15 minutes. We didn’t talk much yesterday and haven’t talked at all today but that’s a lot on me not him right now. I still don’t know how I feel about the whole thing right now, doing that whole "Why him?" thing I talked about a few entries back. I just don’t know right now.

Thanks to the full-time with the pharmacy I am again making tentative plans to go and see Caleb in Pitt over winter break. The pharmacy is not so gung-ho about the holiday retail season as the store, plus they’ll have some of the other techs on winter break too wanting to get more hours so for one week they’ll be fine without me.

I feel very…ambivalent towards life right now.

Things are good!

But I’m just not very happy or excited about the good things in my life right now.

Maybe it’s lack of sleep. Insomnia has been getting me pretty bad lately. Up until 3-4am then having to be up at 8-9am. It kind of sucks, a lot. Maybe it’s that subconsciously I am waiting for the bad stuff to start happening now that so much good stuff is happening to me.

I don’t know.

I’m going to go and get dressed and run some errands I guess.