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Mary’s funeral is Friday morning.  I will go to lab tomorrow afternoon and leave afterwards.  I will get back to town around 8 or 9pm.  M is feeling better and has offered to spend time with me tomorrow night.  I really need some company too.  I’ve got lots of friends down here but I just need company and down here I just don’t feel like I have that.  I have friends who would gladly come over and spend time with me but I just want someone who will hold me and let me sit there.

I am still completely unfocused although I’ve been trying really hard to stay on track.  I do my best to finish my readings but I know I will be missing my classes Friday morning.  I emailed one of my professors already and I will be speaking to my other two tomorrow afternoon before class.  I figure they’ll be a little more understanding since I am going to a funeral and all.  But I don’t think it will count as an excused absence but maybe they’ll be more forgiving about helping with the material.  Plus we have project sign-ups in one of my classes and I really want to get my spot.  *sigh*  Good news I have the whole morning and part of the afternoon to pack.  I have already pulled my black dress out of my closet but I need to pick out a pair of shoes and and stuff.  Bleh.

Just wanted to let you guys know that I am still alive just very…unmotivated…uninspired…and totally drained.

*luv ya bunches*