Happy Turkey Day
Ave Mary A—P!nk
Motorcycle’s in the parking lot
Revving their engines and it just wont stop
Matches the noise screaming in my head
Houston I think we got a problem
Where does everybody go when they go
The go so fast I don’t think they know
We hate so fast
And we love too slow
London I think we got a problem
And when I think about it
I just can’t think about it
I try to drink about it
I keep spinning
Ave Mary A
Where did you go
Where did you go
How did you know to get out of a world gone mad
Help me let go
Of the chaos around me
The devil that hounds me
I need you to tell me
Child be still
Child be still
Broken hearts all around the spot
I can’t help thinking that we lost the plot
Suicide bomber and a student shot
Tokyo I think we got a problem
But for that they have gotta pay
If that don’t kill you then the side effects will
If we don’t kill each other then the side effects will
Cape Town I think we got a problem
Ave Mary A
Where did you go
Where did you go
How did you know to get out of a world gone mad
Help me let go
Of the chaos around me
The devil that hounds me
I need you to tell me
Child be still
If the darkest hour comes
Before the light
Where is the light
Where is the light
If the darkest hour comes
Before the light
Where is the light
Where is the light
Where is the light, yeah
Ave Mary A
Where did you go
Where did you go
How did you know to get out of a world gone mad
Help me help me let go
Of the chaos around me
The devil that hounds me
I need you to tell me
Child be still
Child be still
Child be still
So for those celebrating the holiday, hope it was a good one. Mine was so-so. I guess I will re-cap the last 24-48 hours for me as they proved rather interesting.
I went out with Angel last night. Angel just recently separated from her hubby and is now seeing this guy Chris. Chris is an ok guy I guess. He’s a dork and he’s sweet but he’s also a bit clingy and stuff. But he’s the complete opposite of Angel’s ex-husband so I think he’s good for her, at least for now. But anyway, they invited me to go out with them to karaoke and since I haven’t gone ‘out’ out in forever I did. I didn’t get really dressed up or made up because I wasn’t going to make friends, I was going to get out of the house for a little bit. Well as the night went on there was this guy there that looked really familiar but I couldn’t place why. Then Angel said his name was Buddy and it clicked. Only one guy I ever met with that name and I graduated high school with him and once the name was uttered I realized why he was so familiar. Sure enough it was the same Buddy I went to high school with.
He ended up becoming rather infatuated with me. He followed me nearly everywhere, sat next to me when I sang, danced with me, actual, honest to God dancing, not just the nasty grinding dancing, actual dancing!! He called me beautiful and he kept asking ‘Was I ever mean to you in school?’ and ‘How did I not notice you?’ It made me want to fall on the floor laughing at the irony. This was the same guy that had had no lack of girls that wanted to be with him in high school, a guy who had never noticed I existed. He was never outright mean to me though because even in high school most people knew better than to be mean to me because I always got them in the end. I have no shame in admitting I was a teachers’ pet, and an assistant principal’s pet, and the pet of the entire guidance counselors office. *snicker* So people learned quickly not to take me on directly or they paid for it. This was also the point in time when I was starting to develop some fangs of my own and had no problem being mean to people because I flat out didn’t care what most of the ‘popular’ kids thought about me.
And here was this gorgeous guy making a fool out of himself basically on my behalf. He practically begged me to come back out on Friday night. I haven’t decided yet if I will or not for several reasons. 1) He lives 2-3 hours away from me and I feel bad trying to ‘start’ anything under that circumstance. 2) There is still Hunter to consider. True he has been a complete douche lately but at least with Hunter I know he doesn’t just want sex. I can’t know that about Buddy and I don’t really have the time to find out for certain. After all, I’m supposed to leave either tomorrow night or Saturday morning. That is not nearly enough time to try and feel out that situation to any satisfaction. *sigh*
I just don’t know what to do right now. Although I’m 90% sure that God is laughing at me or playing some kind of mean joke. Or testing me. But testing me for what is the question. My resolve? My faith? I have no idea.
Craaaaaap!
~*~*~Blessed Be~*~*~
