good grief

So some of my regular readers (amazingly I do have some, it always kind of surprises me), probably remember Hunter.  For those who are new readers or don’t remember, he is the guy I spent the end of last fall and the very beginning of the spring semester with a huge thing for.  We messed around a bunch, got really close, got into fights, grew apart, grew close again, blah blah blah.  Then we had a falling out over the whole to-do.  I loved him very much though I never fell in love with him.  I realized it after we had our falling out.   I realized I was more upset with how/why we grew apart than of the fact that we did.  I knew I loved him because let’s face it, it can be easy to love someone.  We love our family and our friends.  And I did love Hunter as my friend and I was falling in love with him until he started pulling all of his stunts.  I quickly stopped that.  Then I started getting close to Quinn and he didn’t pull any crap until after I had already fallen in love with him.  That is really the difference between the two of them though I don’t know if I’ll tell either of them that.  In truth I think Quinn might have Hunter to thank for the fact that I was READY to fall in love.  I hadn’t been for a long time; I hadn’t wanted to fall in love though I was not afraid of a relationship.  

But the strangest thing happened about a week ago.  Hunter texted me, out of the blue, asking if I would want to hang out sometime.  He now lives about 45 minutes away from me.  He moved for his new job and doesn’t really know anyone.  He’s lonely.  I told him we would see.  He texted me again over the weekend while I was hanging out with Quinn.  I think it might have been the closest I’ve ever seen Quinn come to being jealous.  Then Hunter started texting me tonight all over again wanting to hang out tonight and I told him that there was no way tonight and I wasn’t sure when since I’m hoping to have an interview soon.  I said I would let him know later.

On top of that Ven (someone I don’t know if even my regular readers remember) has been asking me to hang out.  It’s a little weird since we haven’t really talked in months.  And I really don’t want to hang out with him because every time we do he ends up trying to make it sexual and I KNOW I’m not up to dealing with that shit right now.  At least with Hunter he is understanding of what’s going on between me and Quinn.  Ven is too much of an ass to care.  His opinion would be to get rid of Quinn, screw love.  That’s his normal stance btw, not just where I am concerned.  He doesn’t really believe in love at all so he’s pretty uncaring about other people’s feelings.  Sometimes I wonder how it is I’ve put up with him for so long, really I don’t know.

I had something else to say but now I’ve lost it.  Maybe I will remember later and edit. =