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Today was an average day. Worked this morning and it was good. Had a couple of speed bumps in the day with customers but mostly it was just smooth day.

I texted Kale on some advice I got the other night. We texted a little bit that night. Then yesterday I sent him another text saying to let me know when he had a chance to hang out again. I haven’t heard anything back from him. =( Guess that pretty much clinches it. One more guy on a long list of disappointments. It’s unreal how often this happens to me and I don’t know what makes it happen. I can’t be coming on too strong because it happens with guys and girls, people I’m not interested in dating and people I have been interested in. I’m just too much I guess. No matter what I do. I keep people at a distance, I try to let them close, I kiss them, I don’t kiss them, I’m touchy, I’m not touchy. Nothing changes the outcome. *sigh*

Also, my trip to Pitt has been put on hold. Apparently the store completely blacks out RO dates from mid-November until January because of the holiday sale season. I had suspected they would be strict about it but is it even legal to do that? Seriously? Just completely deny people the ability to ask off so they can go visit family for the holidays? Really? Ugh, so I don’t know when the trip is going to happen now. Oh well. I’m sure we’ll figure something out for a trip up there at some point in time. We were just trying to make it around his school schedule too.

I also had a sort of weird moment with Doug at work the other day. For those who don’t know or don’t remember, Doug is a co-worker of mine that I was hanging out with for a while a few months ago. I contemplated the possibility of dating him but really never did it seriously because I just don’t think we have much in common. But we did hang out and even messed around a bit. Well the other day there was a weird moment. He went out to smoke a cigarette. When he came back in he came back into the lanes and stood there sort of awkwardly watching me. There was a customer in line and Doug sort of walked around him then paused behind him, still sort of looking at me like he wanted to say something but of course I was with customers and we had the few in line so he didn’t get the chance to say anything if he did want to say something to me. Of course the store was kind of busy and I left pretty much as soon as I got off so if he wanted to say something to me he didn’t get the chance. Then today I left when he was coming in. *shrug* Don’t know what’s going on with that but really, I don’t know what I’d say to him but mostly I just want to yell at him for being such a jerk for the last few months.

I am going to the UFC fight tonight at Grady’s. I just need to get out of the house and get some human interaction. Don’t know how much I’ll be getting because I don’t know how many people I know will be there but that’s okay. I’ll get some at least and that’s good.

In the meanwhile I’m going to pout and itch my mosquito bites and work on the blanket I’m making for a Christmas gift.

RYN: aww! that drives me bonkers too, hence why I’m trying to be more upfront. But I get discouraged because whenever I am, it feels like the girls tend to withdraw and ignore me. OK, fine, they don’t return the feelings, that happens, but you could at least be civil with me! lol. Why does it all have to be so complicated!

Please stay awesome like that then! 🙂 the world needs more ladies like you then. I’m sick of the games and the not admitting to each other and blah blah blah. It’s really getting old to be ignored, or have a girl tell you “I would have gone out with you if you made the right move”. WHAT?! What’s the “right move”?! I asked you to dinner, and you said no, what more do you want from me?! lol.

That’s certainly true! Well I’m turned on by your attitude if that means anything 😉 lol. I’d ask you on a date probably 🙂 My best friends, the couple of girls that rejected me softly but we stayed friends, are all very vocal like that. Up front about dating, sex, you name it. I like that attitude and am very used to it, I wouldn’t want a girl any other way 🙂

Of course, I also know the feeling from another perspective. A girl I used to crush on (I’m so over her, she’s not the type I want as you’ll see in a moment) not long ago spent a while griping to me and another friend about how men are terrible and mean to her and she wishes for once she could meet a nice, loyal guy that wanted to take her on a dinner date and not just get in her pants. I so …

… wished I had big neon arrow signs that I could hold up and point to me, LOL. It’s like HELLO, I’M RIGHT HERE! Know how I asked you to a cute picnic date and all, how despite you rejecting me (even though you admitted liking me at one point! how does that work by the way?!?) I still tried to be a good friend? ARGH! lol. Obviously I’m tired of dealing with that type of girl.

Tired of being the good friend that is always passed over, despite their descriptions of the perfect guy being … me, LOL. Oh that sounds a bit ego-istic 🙁 I’m sorry. I’m probably not all that perfect, but I don’t know. I’m just me. Women like me for me, but don’t *like* like me for me, and it confuses me.

Well I’ll take a “maybe yes” 🙂 sounds maybe good! I can’t blame you though, I feel over dating myself most days. But every now and then a little “aw, this would be a nice day to cuddle” sneaks into my head. You like cuddling right? 🙂

By the way, the rules for vacations sounds iffy. I bet the law is “so many days per year” though so they get away with it by giving you holidays the rest of the year. It’s shady but legal unfortunately 🙁 You can knit blankets? 🙂 that’s immensely cool.

Fantastic! If you’re going to Pitt 6 hrs away then you’re a bit far unfortunately, but if you’re in my neck of the woods you have to come and cuddle 😉 haha! Crochet! I always forget all the different types of making things. I’ve never been really clear on the differences I guess. Just to see what it was like I had my grandmother teach me a little crocheting (I think it was that). I made a …

… hanging sign type thing. I think it had Santa or something on it, it was holiday themed. I guess she still has it, I’m not sure I remember what happened to it! Anyway I have no coordination so I know how tough it was to do just that so I have a lot of respect for people that can do really nice things regularly 🙂

Oh I’m sorry! I saw you mention Pitt was 6 hrs from you 🙂 if you mean Pittsburgh, then its about, oh 18 hrs from me 🙂 pretty far! So I’m sorry I’m not close enough to cuddle 😉 Visiting old friends is nice 🙂 I wish I had time to do it. Even 6 hrs is a bit much for me though. I’m too spastic. I have to constant get up and move. Even while typing here, I pace back and forth every few minutes.

You get that too?!?! Man, girls pull that all the time on me. “Aww its so nice to see you, we should do lunch some time and hang out!”. And then it never happens. And I’m confused, lol. Once I flirted with a girl all the time and was like “Wow you look beautiful!” and I asked her to lunch and she said “sure!” and I was like, “YESSSSSSSS I got a date with a cute girl!” and then she showed up…

… WITH HER BOYFRIEND. I was all confused, lol. I guess she felt bad backing out on the date but didn’t know how to tell me she was taken, so she showed me? i don’t know, it was weird, lol. I still see her sometimes and she’s like “it was so fun with lunch with you, we should do it again!”. I never know what to say, lol.