don’t you wanna stay

Isaac is still in bed asleep. I’m at my desk. I had to look up directions to my eye appointment that’s in a little bit.

I’m content right now, watching him sleep out of the corner of my eye. I’ll have to wake him up here soon to get dressed. He’s borrowing my car to run and drop off his check while I’m in my appointment and maybe dropping off some tax paperwork too. I told him it was okay because I’d be in there for an hour. I have to be there early for paperwork and my appointment isn’t until 11 so I won’t be done until 11:30 or so. Then we might go and test drive cars. We haven’t decided quite yet what the rest of the day is.

I really have fallen hard for this guy. It really sucks. I don’t know what’s going to happen and I don’t want to tell him how I feel. I’m not ready yet and I’m pretty sure he isn’t either. I highly doubt he feels the same way. I didn’t want to ever be this way again. I’m tired of my stupid heart getting involved so then I get hurt when they inevitably walk away. This is going to hurt. I just don’t know when.