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And then on top of that Ven, who I started ignoring after he and I got in a bit of a tiff a few nights ago, decided to message me trying to place nice saying "How was your Christmas?"

Ok, understand he and I have established that he doesn’t want to even try dating me because he’s convinced it won’t work out.  He’s convinced that the 2-hour distance between us when I am at school is just too much of a hurdle.  Nevermind that he works 40-50 hours a weeks or whatever.  But he still wants me to come over and have sex with him when I’m home…

Hmm….let me think about that really hard here Ven…
Oh yeah, NO!!

Sorry but I will not be your FwB because you’re lonely.  I flat out told him finally "I don’t want to be some girl, I want to be the girl…I want to date you, not sleep with you."  And he starts going "It wouldn’t work, it wouldn’t work."  I just think he’s too damned lazy to try for real.  He wants some easy little bimbo who will bend over backwards for him and drop everything in her life to suit his.  Sorry, never been that kind of person, will more than likely never be that kind of person.  Oh well.  You know, completely forget that I basically I my own apartment at school, that yeah I share it with 2 other girls but really, neither of them are around on the weekends and even if they were who the heck cares?  It doesn’t stop other people!  I’ve invited him down on numerous occasions but he’s always too busy so oh well. 

I understand, careers and jobs are important but at that point it’s like "Why do you bother dating when you don’t have time for another person?  You don’t want a girlfriend; you want a slave!  You want someone who will drop whatever she’s doing the moment you call to come over and spend time with you doing whatever.  But heaven forbid she have to work or that she’s trying to better herself by going to school."  And there is the great comeback of "Why don’t you go to school up here?"  Hrm…if I didn’t go to that school in the first place, why would I want to transfer there now?  Honestly, is it that hard to understand there must be a reason I go to school where I go to school?  Maybe oh I don’t know, I want to see someplace other than my hometown, even if it is my dinky, one-horse college-town.  It’s not here, it’s not the same place I have lived for almost 20 years now.  You guys didn’t live here all that time, you get to move around for work or whatever so you don’t really understand what it’s like to be in one town for so long that literally, there is nothing left you haven’t done in that town.  I’m tired of the same streets, the same buildings, the same people!!  It’s starting with this little push, only 2 hours.  Eventually I might move all the way to the opposite coast, you never know!!  If that’s where I get accepted for grad-school and that’s the school with the best offer, then that’s where I’m going.  Get over it!  It’s my life and my choice.  You have nothing to do with it.