a week later

Yeah, mostly I’m just working a lot that’s why I don’t update. That and I don’t have much of a life so there isn’t much to really write about from one day to the next.

I took a chance on Doug and sent him a text saying I thought he was cute. Haven’t heard anything from him. Yes, I have a crush on him. I feel like I should be back in high school. I am not happy about having a crush. Crushes end with you being crushed. So I refuse to accept the crush gently or quietly. I don’t want to have a crush on anyone. There is no point. I will only end up disappointed as usual. On top of that, having a crush is kind of terrifying. It’s terrifying because I just had my heart ripped out and I don’t ever want to deal with that kind of hurt again. It’s terrifying because this also means in some way I am healing from Quinn. But at the same time I’m not healed and I am more than aware of that. I don’t cry when I talk about him. I can talk about him as the past tense and be okay. But certain topics still make me tear up and some make me full out start crying.

I’m excited. Tomorrow I am supposed to go running with one of the girls from the store in the morning. Then I work from 1-8 at the store. Then I’m supposed to go out with friends that night. Then Saturday me and Kay are going to the Ren Faire and I’m super excited about it!!! ^_^

Hm, other than that, not much going on in my life. See? Boring stuff, haha.