Tuesday night tradition

I’ve been watching Arrested Development on Hulu.  Not sure exactly why I started but I’ve become a fan of the show.  And now I am hearing that there is talk of bringing the show back with the original cast for at least one season as perhaps a movie.  Could be fun.  My first reaction when I started watching the show was that it was a little ahead of its time.  I think if it were on the air now it would be a lot more popular than it was ten years ago.

And I admit I’m really enjoying Portia de Rossi, wife of Ellen DeGeneres.  Not in a sexual way, more of a wow-I-wish-I-looked-that-good kind of way. 

I went out for Vietnamese food with tonight with Kaitlin, one of my only friends these days.  It’s become a Tuesday night tradition for us and we always go to the same place.  The guys that work there don’t speak much English, but they have our order memorized and it feels comfortable to eat there.  Kaitlin is one of the people in my life that I am close to that never knew me as anything other than a woman and I like it that she isn’t comparing me to memories of Tom the way I imagine most people do. 

Just mentioning the name Tom feels weird to me.  I don’t regret my past, and I suppose I should be grateful that by the time I was a teenager I had already figured out something was wrong.  But thinking back to all those years of gender dysphoria makes me feel uncomfortable.  I wish I had been Rachel from the very beginning.