Old age

I turned 21 today. I know that’s the big drinking birthday for so many people but I’ve tried not to make alcohol a big deal today.  I’m lifeguarding in the morning and I don’t want to be hungover.  I’ve also been running a lot more lately because Megan wants to run a marathon with me.  Good reasons not to drink too much.  Is it sad that I’m more worried about things like that on my 21st birthday?

My moms took Guy and me out to eat at a tapas place I like in Cambridge.  It was nice to go there especially because I don’t get out to eat much these days.  Then Guy and I came home and celebrated a little together in the bedroom.  As a gift he gave me this skirt that I had been eyeing in a boutique on Martha’s Vineyard last summer.  He actually called the place on the island, described the skirt to them, and ordered it over the phone to ship it here.  I was touched by how thoughtful it was, and totally unexpected.  He apologized he didn’t get me something more expensive (though I remember the price tag on the skirt and I know he spent quite a bit) and explained he had dug himself a hole with my engagement ring.  The truth is he didn’t have to get me anything.  I love him so much just for being in my life, and sharing everything with him is better than any gift.  

I’m sorry, I usually don’t write strange love-cliches in my diary.  Maybe it’s the fact that I’m still glowing from the amazing sex.

I decided to follow through with looking into a second opinion for my gender-reassignment surgery, and after looking around and asking for recommendations, I was led to another surgeon in the Philadelphia area.  Not sure why that seems to be the epicenter of trans-surgery in the northeast.  So I called and made an appointment for a consultation.  They didn’t make me wait nearly as long as the other place, and Guy and I will be headed back down there a week from Monday.  

I’m less nervous/excited this time since I’ve already been through it once.  But I am eager to make a decision and have a set date for the surgery.  I’ve essentially put my wedding on hold so I can plan my surgery and I’m getting to the point where I really want to start planning my wedding instead.