just a dream

I was in a very weird place but with friends.  it ws very isolated., like in the middle of the country.  it wsa very green with an ocean nearby.  I walked onto a clif and saw the blue sea.  Kevin was there.  He was auditioning for one of Hilary’s shows and he was the first pick.  he wsn’t sure if he wanted it or not, but he decided to do it after auditioning.  I am not sure if I was stagemanaging.  then i was with my friends in a suburban-like car and we were discussing trhese strange symptoms that I was having. My friends said that it sounded like I was pregnant.  I was like, no way, and then I thought about how long it had been.  my friend whipped out a test in the car, and wanted me to take it.  but we didn’t have any kind of cup and i wasn’t about to pea on the floor.  so she told me to just go outside the car and do it there.  i did.  but i couldn’t read the test.  kel had to do it for me.  i was pregnant.  my husband or boyfriend was away on buisness or something. when he came back, i told him and he kissed my tummy. the dream jumped ahead and i was traveling across the country with my boyfriend/husband in order for me to get away to be in a healthy place to have the baby.  we were going to this special inn that was really tiny, that my mom had ordered ahead special. she had told them that i was pregnant and could they pleace make it comfortable.  the room was decorated with huge red roses.  there was red on the sheets and on the furnature.  the carpet was red, and as the man showed us to the room there were red candles that he started lighting. my husband.boyfriend kept saying to the man that “my wife needs such and such” and the man would smile and wink and such. finally he asked why the man was decorationa  room that i was gonna be pregnant in, and he said that he was sorry but he thought we were here on our honeymoon.  we ended up traveling back home to my house after all this.  i hadn’t had the baby yet, but i should have in in the timeline of the dream,  I was overdue to give birth but i was not that big. a show had just ended across the street at the school.  it was apparently a show i was doing that i had gotten the day off of working because i missed the show but it was ok.  ryan was dissapointed that the martini bar was shut down already.  but allison was the one serving so she made me a really really strong drink what was like peaches with mint. there was a big peach floating in the bottom.  i began dringing it and then realized that i was pregnant, and got freaked out and gave the drink to kel or laura.  then i was with some other people and was smoking, but about halfway through the cig i threw it away, again becasue i realized that i was pregnant.  all my friends started asking if anything was wrong with the baby, becasue she was so late. so i took another test and it said that i wasn’t pregnant.  but i was still psysically pregnant and i could feel something inside me.  i thought taht the test must be wrong.  we were still haning out outside my house when a group of older people kelly knew through her parents came walking by.  one lady had a tiny little fuzzy chiwawa that wasn’t on a leash.  the woman told me to be careful becasue she usually bites strangers.  i tried to move away from the dog but she kept following after me untill the lady picked her up.  then everyone in that walking group started walking away, but there was s skunk on a treestup in my yard where the roses usually are.  a little kid from the walking group was petting it like a cat and shaking it’s tail.  i shouted at him to stop and get away while running for it across the street.  then i heard it spray, adn the smell was horrible and i couldn’t breath.  i didn’t get sprayed but everyone else did because they didn’t run.  and then i woke up.

so this one will take a little work.  it is funny how i can interprit other people’s dreams pretty easily… the meanings jsut sort of jump out at me.  but when they are mine it gets a little harder.  i am trying to remeber who my husband was in the dream.  i know he had a face and i knew him really really well.  but something tells me that it was new, and that we had barely had sex, which is why the pregnangy was not really expected.  we weren’t trying in otherwords. weird… i can almost see his face.  i know his voice though.  i am pretty sure it was kevin’s voice, but it was not kevin.  so so weird….