Isn’t it funny

Isn’t it funny how something (or someone) can be there staring you in the face for a really long time before you see it is there?  I always forget that sometimes you can find things right in front of you where you never think to look.  Perhaps part of it is just that I have such low self image that I just assume that other people feel the same as me, so when something indicates differently, I tend to ignore it.  I refuse to see the signs that there might be something out there for me till my friends hit me over the head and say, “um, Sarah, he likes you.” I Don’t get it I guess.  I mean, my luck in love has been pretty crappy lately.  I was recently confiding in some friends that I get hit on more by women than men these days.  So when someone expresses interest in me, especially if I am into them as well, I just can’t believe that they actually are interested.  I assume that I am playing it up in my mind, or making something out of nothing.  I think that is one of the thigns I hate about myself.  my incapacity to see any redeaming qualities that might make me slightly attractive to someone.  I don’t know. I think I’m gonna go to bed soon.  I have a lot of paperwork to get done before Monday.  Iam looking forward to this job, but I am not looking forward to the drive into downtown la in this rain we are having.  ug.