7amish..early morning for me

I feel nice, TGIF.

I do find myself these past few days just thinking about my early 20s and how I couldn’t wait to get married and move out. Now, I am married and have moved out and though I love my life, my marriage and I am so thankful for everything I have. I do, sometimes, get this painful yearning for the feelings I used to have when I was younger and had less responsibilities. The feeling of being “free” spiritually. I didn’t feel so many chains holding me down. By chains I mean my own insecurities about the future about not getting pregnant yet and just overall life. There are so many things it seems that I need to sort out and get some clarity mentally. I have to reset, cleanse my thoughts and just rewire my brain and stop myself from sinking into a black hole of negative thoughts which I constantly do these days.

i don’t even know if I make sense just needed to get it out