IF I DATED MYSELF

I am beginning to think that if I every dated someone like me the relationship would not last long.  Now this could mean one of two things: 1. Laws of magnetism apply to the laws of romantic attraction or  2. I need to change how I act.

I find that my personality is like an unstable element. I just happen to be missing a few protons and electrons.  Just like any element I am okay and content, UNTIL, I am disturbed. When that happens I go off. Either I am extremely happy, extremely sad, extremely mad or extremely …etc. Whatever I do I do with a bang. And that can be
scary to some people.

For example when I meet people for the first time I am extremely interested to get to know them and find out everything about them. But that can be weird to people. In a way I expect people to trust me when they first meet me, even if I do not trust them. Because I know I am a trustworthy person, and I assume they know that also, but they most likely do not.

So to get back on track I think I have to change something about me. The “something” that makes me not want to date me.

Truth be told I did want to date me  a while ago….skip

I just remember what my ex-problem told me, at the time I thought it was some b”llsh”t excuse for not calling for a couple of weeks.
He say more or less, well this is what I heard, “You are a lot to handle and I just need to get a way….bla bla bla.. so that I could come back to you.” This was also a reason we stop dating.

But I am drain right now so I am going to eat