Holiday Weekend

Just for once I wish that one of these holiday breaks felt longer than it really is. It seems that right when my mind and body catch up with the relaxation process it’s time to go back to the grind again.

My holiday break started last Tuesday when I went with Travis, Terry, and his daughter Katie to see the Pacers play the Celtics at Conseco. I’m sure by now everyone has seen and heard of the Pacers’ ugly fight at Detroit, so no need for me to discuss it here. I will say that that game was a lot of fun, and the Pacers played unexpectedly well and won. Well, to their credit they do play in the Eastern Conference and that’s not exactly tough competition. So their chances are looking excellent despite all the suspensions…

That same Tuesday night we went up to Kokomo since I knew I’d be too sick to go to work on Wednesday. Now I certainly don’t consider that a lie, because I am definitely sick – of the job, of the coworkers, of the bullshit, etc. And if other people have done the same thing there was no reason for me not to do the same. I technically was a bit physically sick too, all weekend long I’ve had some sort of cold/allergy type thing that has me sneezing and coughing. But anyway, it felt great to sleep in on Wednesday morning. Once I finally got up I went to run some errands with my future mother in law Rhonda (don’t think I’ve ever used her name here). I was happy to help out and it got me doing stuff while Travis was at work, not to mention it gave me bonding time with her. She showed me one of my Christmas presents – she crocheted a gorgeous scarf for me out of that fuzzy eyelash yarn/fur that’s so popular right now. It’s in fall colors – brown, orange, yellow, and black, and I love it! It was so sweet of her to do that; it was finished on Sunday and I will get to enjoy it this week. Gives me a little something silly to look forward to during the super cold weather coming this week, boooo.

Anyway, Wednesday night Travis had to work a basketball game, so I went with him for that….Thursday was of course Thanksgiving, which we held at Danita’s house. We thought it would be crazy since her toilets broke at the worst time, on Wednesday, but the worst it did was cause some tension and delay our eating time until about 2PM. No big deal in the grand scheme of things. We had seventeen people from ages 15 months to 87 years, and so much yummy food! Let’s see what I can remember of it – fried turkey, ham, macaroni and cheese, corn casserole, rolls, sweet potatoes, noodles, mashed potatoes, pecan pie, apple pie – shoot, I know that’s maybe half of it all, lol! Aside from that about the best thing was the football – if only by Peyton Manning going off wouldn’t have hurt my fantasy team, argh!

There was a giant ugly spot to my holiday though….I was being nosy Thursday night and I had glanced over at an IM Travis had going with his friend Matt…and Matt had just made a rude comment about me…he knows I am Hispanic, and he was running his mouth asking Travis if he had explained to me (trying to remember the exact words) about the turkey holiday, the pilgrims, the boat, how it all works, etc. Now I may be Hispanic, but I was born and raised in the US and of course went to school here. All of which he knows. I found that comment so incredibly hurtful and demeaning, and I let him know. I went off on him and told him where he could stick his stereotypes. I was tired of keeping my mouth shut when people make ignorant comments like that – believe me, it’s not the first. So he comes back and calls me all these awful things, from calling me a failure with a “toilet paper degree and a go nowhere job”, to saying that I am an awful bitch, that I’m lucky that the only reason he tries is because he cares about Travis.

Now as far as I know I have been nothing but nice to this guy, and his wife and kids, despite that his four year old kid is a brat that deserves a good spanking (on his better days – the worst was when he kicked me in the head hard and refused to apologize). And the words really hurt me, especially with everything I’ve been feeling on my own recently. They had me crying for a long while. I was angry too…I know, his opinion should mean nothing, but it hurts the most to have someone be so openly rude to me when I have done nothing but be nice and try to be his friend. I’ve put up with his whining and rudeness on other occasions, just in the spirit of peace. It’s another case like I described earlier – I just don’t get why people can be that rude and not like me without really knowing me. That’s so painful.

Okay, so back to my holiday weekend….Between Friday, Saturday, and Sunday I got a good majority of my Christmas shopping done. I wasn’t up in line at 5AM but did make some super buys, including our bedding, but most importantly, we ordered our wedding bands! We got matching gold bands with a simple milgrain edge on them. That way we can both be happy and they match my ring beautifully. The bands were on sale too, so score! Hard to think that there are about six weeks until we are to be married – time is going by so fast! Yay!…There was more yummy food and leftovers of course, church, football, high school basketball (although i’m noticing a pattern – went to two games with Travis, both times it snowed. Hmmm). Despite the fact that it seems like we did so much, we found a lot of time to relax as well. I know I ceratianly needed it.

But today was back to the grind. I hadn’t had such a hard time ending a weekend like I did with this one in a long while. A lot of my frustrations I had written about are coming to a head, and I am desprate to find distractions and alternatives to feeling crummy. A smart guy told me a while ago to always remember that “This Too Shall Pass”, and that’s what I’ve been trying to do. The last three days I have been praying extra hard for everything too. We did some research and with most stuff paid for, we still have more money than we thought we would, so for that we are most thankful. That certainly is a huge relief. The biggest would come once Travis finds a job, once we actually do the ceremony, and once we can move on to enjoy our lives together. So that’s where the bulk of the prayers need to be.