Filthy brown acid rain

……pouring down like egg chow mein dadadadadada SLIME beneath me, SlLIME up above me!!! (inspired by the trout on the fish counter)

I don’t honestly know why I bother sometimes. I go through suck fucking efforts to please people and they are repeatedly ungrateful and just plain rude. Yes I understand that not everyone feels and thinks the same way as me but it would be nice if people could try a little harder to compromise.

Yet again I am alone and sad, it is goin gto be a long night lol. But I will no doubt be the first one awake tomorrow again. It is amazing really how a person can withstand sleep deprivation remarkably well!

We were supposed to be watching a film tonight, but that went tits up due to the fact that a certain someone can’t stay a fucking wake. I decided to go upstairs and check all my internet shizzle and let Daisy watch her programe but oh no she can’t watch tv downstairs on her own! So as I check my stuff Daisy lays in the bed, getting tired so we never actually get to watch a film. I am fed up! It is so annoying being wide awake and extremely unfair. Everything she wants guess what she gets but when I want something what happens that’s right she falls asleep. I am also writing her s book for xmas, and I wanted to read her it to see what she thought so far….guess what I start reading and she falls asleep. I am quite angry right now and I feel like crying. I know it was probably not intentional and she is tire but still she could try and at least have the decency to say she was going to bed. The thing is she even had the audacity to get cocky with me and be mean when I said I didn’t know if there was any point reading to her cause she would be asleep in 5 seconds oh and low and behold there she is. I might as well delete her fucking story and invest in a pair of pyjamas for her!!!!

Well as I say we have been working a lot!! Had a roast today really late (another demand of Daisy”s) it was ok but a bit too heavy if you know what I mean. Cooking a roast after work is just proposterous really.

God! I wanted to have a really nice romantic night watching a film having a snuggle and now it is ruined, RUINED!!

I didn’t want to just moan but to be honest at the moment there is little else in my life to do lol. Can’t go home for xmas for more than two days, can’t go home for my birthday, can’t do anything!! New years is ruined it sucks in every possible way. What is the point in having money if you’ve nowhere to spend it!! Or rather no oppourtunity! well I suppose our traditional crappy new years will be continued on to another year eh? Woo fricken hoo!!

I hope everyone else is having a better time with everything cause I sure am at an all time bummed out rock bottom right now.

LOL!!! So much for not moaning.

Well I suppose I had better go and stare at the wall for a few hours before I fall into shitty and bitty sleep that does not restore me in any shape or form and then wake up tomorrow and repeat the same automatic rountine as everyday….everyday! That is what I have to look forward to everyday….oooh somebody stop me. What a life!!

Easy my people!!

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