Yes!!!!

I’ve spent the last three days trying to write in here. In fact just to post that las entry. Now it posted. How great is that? That is so great, it’s super great. It made my day. I have work today from 10 to 5. Yippie! Actually I like work. It’s a great job. I work with great people and all that. I love it there.

The world is just crazy though. Seems very official that we’re going to war. Also just I’m sick. Seriously my tummy is upset and I’m running a fever but I’m still going to work. Don’t tell anyone okay cause yeah people would get mad if they knew. I would get mothered to death if I told people I was sick.

The bad thing about being me, to many people worrying about little old me. I really don’t understand it. I really don’t get it. But that’s just me. Last night I was up late. Till about 4 in the morning talking to Cox on-line. He’s a good listener on-line. Sometimes I need that. Which that is good.

I made the statement to him that, I fake happy sometimes because people worry when I’m not happy. And he said I worry when you’re not happy. That made my night. Because not many people ever tell me they would actually worry or express any sign of care till as of late. The only time I’ve ever noticed any sign of care is when I tend to have a bad day. I need to know it on the days I am fine. Because usually that’s why the bad days come. Because I don’t feel loved and cared for the days before. But maybe it’s just me. Maybe I’m just blind and actually know why I’m that way. Oh well, at least I can write in my od again.

Sometimes things are far to complicated to fix

~Sonja~