Place The Dagger A Little Above Thy Heart

Today is the day that the posse will have its meeting. Or as I like to call it “the group.” That’s what I refer to us as now. This is the alter-ego of the posse. There’s not much I can really say then nothing about the meeting. I mean I have my own thoughts and feelings on what should happen. But what I think should happen is something maybe different from what another member thinks should happen.

I have my own expectations. Which I tend to keep those to myself but today I feel like discussing those expectations. First of all I expect everyone to come willing to look for solutions not problems. I don’t want anyone coming for a fight. Because if they are they can leave. I hope today by the end of the meeting we can move on past this and be the posse again. I mean there are a lot of things us older members and even the younger members have to learn to accept though after this meeting.

That they’re in school and we are not there. Val, O. Sarah, and myself are graduated. Things won’t ever be the same. Things are never suppose to stay the same. It’s silly of us to expect them to not change. Because change is all a part of life. Now dealing with these changes will prove how strong the group really is. Tonight will actually prove how strong the group really is. If we can handle this seriousness and if we can handle change together. We have to learn these things together. If we can’t then there is no point.

Also if things are not resolved this evening, there is no point in going on as the posse. Or anything because it makes no sense for us to even stay friends if we can’t solve a little difference. As far as I know though now. This may not be a little difference. That there may actually be something deep and seroius here. I do not know. I’m just glad I’m thinking with a clear head today. I hope I stay thinking with a clear head today. I need to.

I myself am over my problems. I myself am over all of this. I myself am ready for this. I just hope that things work out for the best. That things will work out like they’re ment to tonight. For everyone’s sake, I really hope these things work out well. I miss the posse I really do, and the monsters this mess is making us is just disgusting.

But it’s days like today i meet being wrong with open arms. Today I look for hope in clouds of anger and distress.

~Sonja~