Happiness In 2 Hours

*happy sigh* I talked to him for two hours last night. Two whole hours. The best two whole hours in a long time. I wasn’t sad. I wasn’t mad. But I sure enough was very glad. We talked about everything that we didn’t know about each other. And he asked if I was going to be at the basketball game. Me! Little old me. That is just so great.

I can’t wait to see him tomorrow night. And today after school I the Senior was standing outside before getting on my bus talking to my other friend who is a senior other Sarah and he walked up. He said hi to me first then to other Sarah, who he hasn’t seen in like two years. But how do I say hey I like you. When you’re afraid of getting hurt and him turning you down. I mean I don’t know if I can handle that kind of rejection again.

I’ve lost all the people I’ve ever cared about deeply to not saying anything at all to get into a fight. I just don’t know anymore. I feel so alone sometimes and feel like I push people away. But it’s not like that with him. I feel connected to someone who understands me and likes the kinds of things that I do and not because I like them. Because he likes them. I read one of my poems to him and he liked it. He said it was really good. I was so happy. It made me feel so good.