Been too long.

Yea, okay, its been QUITE a while since i’ve actually come in here to vent, but as of lately i hadn’t had a reason to. Until now, i guess. Well, let me fill you in. I’m nine months pregnant and due to have my son this next week. My biggest problem is that the father, Andrew, is a complete prick. there is a difference in being a father and being a sperm donor..which he is. He has NO fatherly values. I hate him with a passion because he is NOTHING. He has no job, no car, he lives with whoever will take him in for the day, he’s been in jail, he hasn’t finished paying his court costs, he still hasn’t finished his like 200 hours of community service, he had a heartattack like 2 months ago…*smirk*…but he brought it on himself…he has NOTHING. I told him he couldn’t be in the room when the baby was born because he wouldn’t help me pay for childbirth classes. I mean, he expects me to do EVERYTHING for him and the baby. He wanted me to drive him wherever he wanted. I was driving to Sand Springs and back like every day. That’s 20 minutes or more away from where I live, by highway. Its ridiculous. I don’t have to do shit for anyone…especially him. he should be helping me out. But he wouldn’t even buy a bag of diapers. What a prick. I have done everything. He has done nothing. Then he told me that he wasn’t going to get involved with anything at all right now and that i should just call him when the baby is born, then he’ll get into the picture…if *I* pay for a paternity test. Ok..he IS the father, he wants ME to pay for the test and he doesn’t want to do anything until the baby is actually here. NO. He’s done and gone, i can tell you that. I haven’t talked to him in over a month which is probably a good thing because i would TEAR him up right now if i could…Anyway. Im just scared. Honestly Im really afraid of being alone through this whole thing, but being with him is even worse. Anyway..gotta go..buh bai.