Sleepless night

I am not going to sleep much tonight had to rush to the hospital with my husband he had another heart attack. This will be the first time in ten years that I will be sleeping alone, because of covid protocols I can’t stay with him like I did the first time he had his heart attack. He had another stent put in and is doing good and recovering so I can breath easier now. I was a lot calmer this time but I was shaking like crazy and scared but had to keep it together to answer the questions the 911 operator was asking me even though he was awake and alert throughout the hold ordeal it was hard from to answer questions because of  the pain. My hubby has a high threshold for pain so even though he is riving in pain he will still cut up and joke with people. The first heat attack he had while I was crying eyes out and scared out of my mind they where calling a code blue because they were expecting him to flat line and had the defibrillator at the ready to shock him and was sitting up in bed saying I am ok and giving me the thumbs up freaking everyone out. This time was a little different but I knew he was going to be ok.
The part I hate is seeing him in so much pain and there is nothing I can do to help him I hate that helpless feeling. Me wanting to scream at the doctors because they didn’t seem to be in a hurry. It took a while for us to be put in a triage room I don’t know if it’s because of covid but they had not open rooms when we got there and then they had to have house keeping clean and disinfect the room before it can be used. Or if it just felt like it took a long time because when you are experiencing something like that minutes can feel like hours. I am grateful they let me stay because of covid they have no visitor policy so the could have asked me to leave. I am glad they didn’t and I was able to stay until knew for a fact that he was ok and I got to sit with him for an hour after he was out if the cath lab. Thankfully he might get to come home Thursday. I just wont sleep well until he does.