Tense

I wish I had something productive to say here. 

I’m just so angry right now.  I’m angry at how self-centered and self-righeous people are.  I’m angry with myself for succumbing to those exact same vices.  I’m just angry.  This is just such and incredibly random and sudden change of moods for me.  I don’t really understand it. 

For weeks now there has been this unbelievable angst swelling up inside of me.  I wish I could say exactly why it’s been happening… but it just seems so cynical.  I don’t like being negative and cynical about things… but I’ve been feeling as though the whole world is turning into this horrible place where everyone is out only for themselves. 

It’s so odd how things can be going so well for you, yet you can still feel so upset about the stupid and wrong things you do.  Maybe this is the way it’s supposed to be.  Maybe this is some sort of good balance… I don’t know.  I honestly don’t really even know why I felt so motivated to actually put this in writing. 

I guess I just feel better getting it out in the open somehow.  GAAAAAAHHHH!!!!  That was me letting out some tension.  Phew… now I’m going to bed.