Nightscape

So if you you inadvertently hurt someone by a choice you make… then they abandon you, and in turn hurt you back, but you still welcome their frienship and care no questions asked, who is the better person?

I keep asking myself the same question and wondering if I’m making the right choices in this whole matter.  Should I just let go?  Is it the best thing to do even though it would be the hardest?  Should I remain hopeful and optimistic that eventually things will work out?  Asking myself who the better person is seems more and more pointless to me, though, and I feel increasingly saddened by just about everything that has happened.  The more memories I return to, the more I just want to cry… the more I wish this all is some kind of horrible nightmare. 

I wish it were a nightmare.