Game Point

I went and played some tennis with Jackie last night.  I haven’t played in forever… and I’d only played once in the past anyways.  It was really nice to get out and do something active like that.  I have to say, though, that I was extremely sore afterwards.  She beat me, being the more experienced one, but once I get my serve accuracy up to par, I’ll really tear her apart =0P.  We’re going to be playing fairly often since we both love tennis so much.  This will be just one more thing to help me get back in shape. 

I spoke with Beth yesterday for a bit.  It was really enjoyable talking to her this time.  I think things are slowly getting much better with everything now.  Of course, we still need our time apart, but it’s at least nice being able to talk to her like I used to.  I missed my friend.  I actually found out a few things I didn’t know before… about how she was feeling about everything.  I feel much better now, though.  As much as I shouldnt’ really concentrate on it, it certainly feels great knowing she’s so happy that I’m actually getting better.  She ended up catching a lot of the brunt of my self-destructiveness trying to be there for me, and I’m glad I can be the person she respected so much again. 

Last night I decided to end my quest for Marching Mizzou.  After trying to put together a work schedule for next semester, the time throughout the day was getting tighter and tighter.  Also, I didn’t realize that I wouldn’t be able to work the football games.  We get paid an extra dollar per hour for games and work long hours those days.  They feed us for free as well.  This combined with the fact that I would leave myself almost no time to donate plasma, pretty much no time to work out, and little time to study has led to my decision to drop the marching band dream.  I’m really sad that I have to do this, but I realize I have got to keep my priorities straight.  I honestly feel there are more important things to worry about right now.  This really sucks… and I hate admitting that I can’t fit band in, but I just have to keep things realistic.

I made a big booboo today.  I was making cookies with Julie this afternoon and completeyl forgot to put half of the flour in the mix… it was just horrible.  Blah.  Oh well… we decided to call them chocolate chip pancakes.  Speaking of Julie, things are definitely beginning to play out as us just being friends.  I’m finding more and more that I just wouldn’t work well with her in a romantic kind of way.  She’s just too carefree for me.  She seems disconnected to things around her in ways.  I don’t know… it just doesn’t appeal so much to me anymore.  Oh well… only time tells with these kinds of things.  I’m off to take a shower.  Goodnight.