Jenna <3

Dear Diary,

I just saw a new video uploaded by Jenna Marbles, and she made a "Draw My Life" video in which she draws on a white board and talks about her life. And i cried. Let me tell you why.

She really emphasizes about how she really has no idea about what to do with her life, and that hit me really hard not because i realized that i’m not alone in the world in feeling that way, which was a huge relief for me. But also just that its hard to really find yourself, and she touched me with her life story about her family, and how she was lonely for most of her life. She has friends of course but the let downs she went through, and the relationships she had with the boys she loved, were just so…..real.

I don’t have a lot of friends. Besides my husbands, i have a fabulous friend who i call Vampy, and he fills a bit of that friendless void in my heart. But he lives in my hometown in Cali, and i’m all the way in Nebraska, so we only communicate through phone and skype when we’re both not busy. I wish i had friends of my own here. I am aquainted with my husband’s friends and co-workers from the Air Force, but no one i can call a friend unfortunately. 

Oh well.