Artistic Differences

SO i have had a rather eventful and disappointing 48 hours. As a digital artist, i was involved in a few projects with other talented and enthusiastic writers and artists. And in such a short time, i am shot out of one project for sure, and the others are hanging by a thread.

The project i am no longer part of was an interesting Supernatural meets Ghostbusters story that i was super excited for and even had the concept art and storyboard done, but the person that was the creator of it kept putting off meetings and approvals for the content i was working on for them. After trials and LOTS of miscommunication, we decided to just drop the project entirely. So that was a bust.

The next project i was working on with a wonderful and talented colorist was a fanfic based on our favorite game app (no shame here), and it was my job to illustrate the pages and she was to color them. Now, i have no qualms with this artist, and because of some irl situations she needed to deal with, i can’t fault her for not having worked on the current page we are on. But time is passing by and im wondering if this fic has any hope of even getting anywhere at this point.

Lastly, a comic book that a writer friend of mine and i have worked on for almost 2 years now (we actually published the first issue of it) are currently working on issue #2. But i feel complicated about it. It’s been a little success and we’ve sold t-shirts and comics and have been mentioned in magazines and podcasts, but im working on the physical part of this story by myself, and its super stressful trying to pump out page after page at a decent pace.

When you work on a comic, you have your basics; script, storyboard, concept art, page planning, and editing. Then when you put the idea on paper (technically on screen since its all digital now), you have to construct and execute character poses, panel structure, backgrounds, textures, color, and details.

I am doing all of it because so far i am the only one who is capable of doing it.

Is it too much to ask for commitment? For a little enthusiasm? For the universe to give me a human who can make amazing backgrounds so i don’t have to? I really hate backgrounds and architecture, and i have never related to Godzilla at such a spiritual level.

I’m stressed, disillusioned, and utterly disappointed.

But not all is lost. If anything, my Instagram, Tumblr and Deviant commissions have been getting a lot of likes and notes, so that’s been keeping me going. I have a lot to be grateful for.