3rd entry – Just overwhelming happiness

Yes I am sick and quite miserable but I still am so happy and content with life and where I am at.  My home is clean and coming together.  My son has so much more room to play and explore.  I have more then I need and am not living pay check to pay check.

Today the roads were such a mess from the rain, and I now have a nice SUV to drive on the roads instead of just my focus.  My focus is a GREAT car and only 3 years old but sometimes it is nice to have a bigger sturdier car up here when the weather is crazy. 

I have a beautiful home with a large living room and fireplace.  We had 10 people seated comfortable in my living room at one point lasst night.  It was nice being able to do that. I also had the garage set up with a folding table and chairs for smokers so that they wouldn’t sit out in the rain.  That ended up being a nice set up too.

I have a great kitchen with more room the I need to store things and to cook.  I love the dining area and my new dining set looks great in there. 

Kyle’s bedroom is big enough for his toys and for him to play in.  I did get cable installed in there for his tv and a dvd player in there.  He really doesn’t use it unless his cousins are over.  they will watch the tv. 

The guest room/den has Nathan’s computer set up in there as well as the guest bed.  It is so comfortable.  I took my nap in there so I coul dbe near Nathan as he played.  My friend Tiffany stayed in there last night and loved it.  The sheets are a 800 thread count and my favorite Calvin Klien Khaki collection pillows are in there too.  The mattress is a firm pillow top that just cradles you when you sleep.  Kyle and I will sleep in there often when he wakes up not feeling well.

My bedroom has a HUGE walk in closet and a master bath.  We do have digital cable set up in there so we can have the movie channels in our room.  Kyle just has basic cable.  anyways, My Ca King size bed fits in there and there is still a LOT of room for furntiure and moving around in.  I do have a ver ynice bed too.  Of course I have 800 thread count sheets in there.  My mattress has double coil orthopedic springs and I added a feather top mattress pad for extra comfort.  I sleep so much better now.

It is nice having my family all under one roof.  Nathan, Kyle and I have really become a family.  I wrote all about this because I was thinking back to my marriage that lasted WAY too long almost 10 years and never was I this happy.  Never was I so cherished and appreciated.  never was my ex a true partner and help mate that Nathan is.  He joins in on clenaing our home and making it nice and a safe place for Kyle to run free.  Nathan takes care of me when I am sick and brings me water and medicine.  He even runs to the store for me to get wha tI need.  My ex rarely ever did.  My ex always tried to get out of working and I was the bread winner and responsible to support us.  nathan and I are a team in this and have even money being put away for retirement, for emergenices and now we are looking into what we can do for Kyle’s education.  He helps me with Kyle and will get up for him at night and keep him busy while I am trying to get stuff done and vice versa.

We are a family and it means so much to me.  I never dreamed I would have this in all my life.  I wanted this but never thought it was achievable.  I didn’t settle, just to be with someone no matter how successful or not they were.  I found what makes me happy in a man and stuck by what I knew I needed.  A partner who makes time for me and loves to spend time with me.  He also loves my son. 

I also have a job I do enjoy, am moving up in the company and work with some really great people who are also close friends.  Hey I even met Nathan there when I returned from my maternity leave last year. 

I Praise the Lord everyday for what I have now.  I know that God did answer my prayers and give me my hearts desire.  I remember in high school reading the verse "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."  I wrote it down and have kept it close to my heart for years. 

Twenty years later that verse came into fruitation.  The Lord has given me my hearts desires.  A beautiful son, a loving man, security and happiness and even a job that I enjoy.  I thank Jesus for everything.  The Lord does keep his word, sometimes it just is a rough road getting there and it takes longer then we like.  Trust me I know.