What To Do?

Ok, so yesterday I had a bit of a breakdown. I talked to Elenor about it, she’s my counsellor. She was really helpful, what she was saying made so much sense. I was telling her why I am how I am, or at least trying to. I was explaining about my family and what’s happend and what’s going on now and everything and she was telling me to cut strings and let go, I want to I really do but how? I know they cause me nothing but pain, sorrow and grief but they’re my family and I want to have my family and I don’t know how I’d cope with not having a family. I know it sounds stupid as they give me nothing of nothing, but I don’t want to be on my own, does that make sense? That’s why I’m kinda worried about coming out to them. I like the idea of having a family but not the reality, but don’t want to not have them. Ok that’s it. Well no it’s not.