March 8, 2009

Gone but Not Really Grieving

So, Sampa died yesterday. He’d been in hospital for a fortnight, ill for a quarter of a century and dying for the past ten years, or so we were lead to believe every time the so much as sneezed or sniffled, but he got really bad when he broke his leg and went down from there really, that was 2008 and then he got taken in again, he had a UTI and then he got a chest infection, then they put him on oxygen and then he died. Don’t be sorry, I’m not. We weren’t close, we didn’t love each other, he thought nothing for me. I was just that poor bastard child.

May Hell mend him for the things you did in this life.

The funeral is Thursday and I’m not going, I offered to for my Dad but he said after everything, or should that be seeing as he did so little for me, that I don’t need to go, and then we discovered that his wife is arranging a traditional Irish funeral and so the only women that will be there will be Sampa’s wife (he re-married after Grandmama died) and my aunt. Which is fine by me. I’m not going to fight to go the funeral of a man who invalidated my entire existence based upon whether or not Ma had a ring on her finger when I was conceived.

I am not grieving for the man, a large, negative part of my life is now gone, I should be celebrating.

i’m sorry that your grandfather died without ever giving you anything worth grieving for.

9 months, hes the closest to me than any other guy has been….he behaves….just….no job. am i being stuck up about the present thing? can i blame him for being out of work when he is looking but its so hard now? i dont know anymore.

Mrs. Tiny Duckie

March 9, 2009

I don’t grieve for people I’ve never met because they don’t mean anything to me. I doubt I’d grieve for someone I had met if they didn’t mean anything to me, either.

MrsJWine

RYN: Hah! Someone else made a similar comment about her neck. James thinks it looks like it’s photoshopped on. She’s got this itty bitty skinny neck and such a giant head that it looks kinda goofy. If you look closely, you can see just a bit of her neck on the left side. I’m surprised she can hold her head up at all!

broken essence

SublimeFire

March 10, 2009

aww sweetie it must be a strange thing to have someone who obviously had an influence over your life die not always sad, just strange.

Ahhh your note made me laugh! I’m sorry baby 🙁 I don’t really know what to say so I’m not goin to be fake. I hope you are ok though, I don’t think your heartless.xx

Sticky situation thoughh… either one of us will look like a tit. So basically, he’s just gonna tell her off for it. “If my gf see’s that its not nice or fair, be more considerate.” sort of thing. Just the absolute cheek of it made me want to ram my foot up her ass hole!!! xxx

P.s.. How soppy is my effin’ bf? Aha. I felt like sucha cow when I read over that. He is a sweetie really.. just lacks brains sometimes.xx

Chaosbride

you have every right to feel the way you do