so much better

 I love my kids lately.  I mean I’ve always loved them but there was always this deep down feeling like I didn’t love them enough and I know now that that feeling had a lot to do with the anxiety.  Every little thing made me anxious so I never enjoyed my time with the kids.  At the park i’d spend every second stressing over if they are going to fall and get hurt and watching them like a hawk to make sure they didn’t touch anything super dirty.  Id chase them around with a pack of antibacterial wipes.  Literally.  Things have been SO much better lately.  I’ve had so much fun with them the last few weeks.  I can honestly say that I’ve never been happier or more content with my life.