PMS
I’ve diagnosed myself with PMS. Progesterone dominant.
I need to focus on school and preparing to study internal medicine but instead I’m somewhat preoccupied with my romantic life. I’ve really gotten the marriage bug. I want to meet somebody I truly love and who truly loves me. I want to meet someone I am compatible with and who I think it’ll work out with.
I don’t like anyone *like that*. In other words, I try to have the love of Christ for everyone. I try to feel compassionate and I do, but I don’t feel compatibility and spark with anybody. I also worry about the fact that I cheated on you know who with you know who. I worry that I’ll be happy for a little while then become racked with dissatisfaction a year or two later. What kind of person, what kind of Christian am I if I can’t be monogamous and happy? I don’t think polygamy is the solution though either…it’s not fair to everybody.
Julie
i saw your title and thought, “me too” keep focusing on school. Do you think with the right person, you could stay monogamous? I feel like it is hard to find that spark, and it can be frustrating because there is nothing you can really do to force it into your life
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oh how I envy you! seriously… the right one will come along. Start praying for him now. good things don’t happen in our time, they happen in God’s time. :o) (((HUGS)))
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This’ll come in time. But not while you desire it so much. I know it’s cliche, but what you put out there when you want it so bad it’s genuine and you don’t end up attracting the right people. Just be you and the people you should have around you will come.
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Is it just your physical age? Your young, entering mid life with all the excitement that has to offer. The Sky is the limit, you set the parameters. At your young age, your hormones are raging and you do notice others as potential partners. Eventually you will meet the love of your life when you least expect it. The connection will be more than physical, emotionally you will desire no other. Keep up your immediate goal of completing your education, the other partner stuff will fall in line. I think you’ll find monogamy is quite easy once you are committed to it with the right person. God Bless
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I think that your thinking like every normal girl! on a side note when you did what with you know who you were younger and didn’t know what you wanted and now your starting to form ideas of what type of man you want and qualities you like and dislike!
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🙂 Can’t believe you are still here and doing so well! I just read your diary home page description and it made me smile so much. I remember you when you were only 15!!! Ahh..such memories from my days lurking through Open Diary…
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