If Today Was Your Last Day.

What would you do if today was your last day?  Would you call the ones you love?  Would you spend your last moments putting all your affairs in order so the ones you love aren’t burdened with it?  Would you rather spend it alone?

What would you do if you had this sudden epiphany: You would always be alone.  You began to realize that hey, there isn’t a somebody out there for every person.  Everyone around you was making attachments.  Permanent ones.  And all you have to show for in your life is a job you love, but barely pays the bills? 

What if you got a phone call from the ghost of your past, and you realized they will always be in your past.  They will never be a returning character in the sitcom: Your life.

What would you do if the one you could see yourself with, the one you hoped you could be with, will never see you in that light? You realize nobody wants to be with you. You will never be good enough for anyone.

What would you do if you came to the realization that the only people who would be affected by your last day would be family, which is only due to obligation? 

Have you ever come to the conclusion that the only people you speak to in the duration of one day, verbally, are coworkers? 

Have you ever considered the fact that you just aren’t strong enough to make a difference?

If today was my last day, I wouldn’t do anything different because it wouldn’t make any sort of difference whatsoever.

Have you ever come to the conlcusion that you are not happy with who you’ve become? 

You can’t change your choices, you can’t change your past.  What gave people the impression that you can change your future?  It’s just like covering up old wounds.  It doesn’t heal anything.  It hides it all.  What good does that do?  It just makes hitting the ground so much more painful.