Busy? Or…

 Just procrastinating. -le sigh-

I can’t help but think of myself that way. It’s been ages since I logged on FB. I still haven’t, on my role play account, that is. It’s just…how do I put it… I’m not bored of RPing. Maybe I’m just scared that no one will be there to welcome me unlike in our past glorious days. All the characters seemed to have quieted down, and their admins are more onto posting real life (RL) things and making RL friends instead of letting their muse (the character they RP) do the thing.

Nothing’s like the way it was. And it frustrates me.

Moreover, the villains have been silenced as well. What is a hero without an antagonist? Isn’t he just a bland, ordinary person– a character who has lost his role? And that is how I feel…at least for my muse, Salv. I pity him. He has nothing else to do whenever he comes back since all he does is to fend off the enemies and follow the will of the goddess.

And oh, the goddess. He has not heard from her for a long time. What else is he to do without the goddess? With the god Chaos missing-in-action as well, the battlefield is nothing but an empty stage. A barren, deserted place which amplifies the bite of loneliness.

As the RPer, it is painful on my part to subject my muse to such. … Talk about overly cheesy. But, really. Fighting for peace is all that Salvatore has. And now, peace has been enforced indirectly– the absence of everyone, that is.

As for me, I have RL friends in there. The admins. I wish to go back there and check up on them. Apart from that, what else am I to do? Feeling like such a worthless admin, I shun myself from doing so. 

A friend once suggested that I should start on another account; another character to RP. I just said I’ll think about it. In reality, I never want to give up on Salv. He’s my first muse, and to throw him away like a broken toy– I’d rather quit RPing altogether. 

… WTH am I ranting about this again?

I’m supposed to write how awesome I was on the arcades yesterday!

DAMMIT.