voice of reason

So I spoke to my good friend Shu today, and she definitely knows how to put things into perspective for me… Long story short… A and I will be friends but I shall never verbalize how I felt for her… It’s just not necessary, not to mention that nothing can come of it and it may actually do more harm than good. I truly do value A’s friendship and whatever this unspoken connection is that we have… it will have to remain unspoken…

When I really sat and thought about it I felt like I was emotionally cheating on my fiance and that is not what I want to be doing or where I want to be, going into this next stage of my life. and just like that… the perspective I needed and I found my answer… will the urge completely go away… probably not, but its not worth it.. I have one of the best people in my life by my side who has said she wants to spend the rest of her life with me and I don’t want to do anything to jeopardize that… I love her more than anything…

Another lesson learned… Thanks Shu!