the dreams cont

so guess who I had a dream about last night?!?!?!?! of course who else would it be… my ex Felisha… (well it wasn’t actually about her but she was in it) but let me tell you how weird it was…

First it was a dream come true… I was hangin out with Jada Pinkett-Smith (how this happened I have no clue). We were chillin in Brooklyn I want to say… It’s a little fuzzy but we were mad attracted to each other and had this thick sexual tension. We were just walking around the  city aimlessly just talking and flirting. Now in real life if I were ever to meet JPS I would have a pass from my fiance because she is a celebrity on my list of "if we ever met I can do whatever I want sexually" (yes there is a list and all of them probably wont happen but hey a girl can dream).

So there was a lot of stuff that happened in the middle but its blurry now. But I do remember making out with her and talking about actually having sex.  It was so intense… the kissing the rubbing the breathing hard… I couldn’t believe it was happening. So we decided on later I think. Then we got into an argument because I was asking her why she changed her last name to PS instead of with my last name. Then she said that she would actually have to change it to Pinkett Smith Jackson, because she was also in a relationship with Kalila Jackson (in my dream this person was also a famous singer i think). So I got mad that she already had a gf, and was like so you are bisexual… and told her how she needs to stop lying to herself and how she is probably breaking Will’s heart. This whole time I am thinking to myself why have I not told her I have a fiance. but needless to say I never told her. So the argument cont and she left. I spent a little time looking for her but gave up and went back to my apt.

NOW HERE’S WHERE IT GETS WEIRD!!!!!

Sitting at the comp in my bedroom is my fiance, who is doing some research or something, then low and behold F comes in. Now F and i have some kind of conversation, and she and I start making out. ALL WHILE MY FIANCE IS SITTING AT THE COMP… so in my mind I am thinking 2 things Jada might come back and see this and be mad, and I should tell F I am engaged. So I get all the way down in between her legs and start pulling her underwear down. then I stop. Not because my fiance is there (at this point I actually forgot she was in the room), but because I am afraid Jada will walk in on F and I. So I stopped completely. F gets mad and is like how could you go that far and not keep going… She tries to convince me to finish, and my fiance chimes in with a reason why I shouldn’t go on (i forgot what she said). So I don’t continue, and F leaves upset. I am sitting on the bed hoping that Jada will return, then ALL OF A SUDDEN… i realize that I was making out and about to have sex with my ex in front of my fiance and I didn’t even think twice about it…. so I was feeling really bad at this point, and I asked my fiance why she didn’t try to stop me sooner, and she was like I never know what to say or do when you get into situations like that. I was like huh… I think she and I went back and forth for a little while more, and I was still hoping Jada would come back…

Then I woke up… so weird… I literally forgot my fiance was in the room and was just so concerned about what I wanted to do. I was even willing to do it with someone I didn’t want it from.. Thank goodness I stopped myself…

A very weird dream