School kickin my butt… and then there is Ava

man it has been so long.. I am so sorry for the long time in between entries… school has been kickin my ass… between my thesis classes, volunteering and work… life is crazy, oh yea dont forget my relationship as well. Everything is going really well with me and Mackenzie… good thing we live together because with our school schedule we would barely see each other… and I leave this Thursday for Seattle… I am so excited.

But let me tell you about Ava… a very smart and attractive African American women. She is my new crush. the funny part is Ava and I have only met once about 6 years ago. We barely know each other, but ever since I graduated we have kept in correspondence with each other. sending random texts and hellos… I have always thought she was attractive. She was engaged for a while, but that didn’t work out. This past week was nothing huge… just innocent texting. She told me my name is beautiful… my parents did a wonderful job because I swear it is a chick`magnet lol… but her texts are random which i guess just lets me know that i cross her mind more often than not. it really is an innocent crush…

i feel like i cant have crushes because Mackenzie and I are so serious… like even having a crush is too much…  because the people I crush on usual have a high probability of working out into being a relationship. i dont know… its innocent now and always has been… we shall see…