sabotage
someone is trying to sabotage me… yes believe it or not ladies and gents its the truth… so interesting how things go… When i give up on something or become inconsistent with writing in my diary… I am always pleasantly surprised… Felisha messaged MK on facebook last night and sent her the link to my diary… it just makes me laugh… I wonder what she was trying to accomplish by doing that… "showing her the truth or something… in one sense I’m kinda like wow why does she even care… and surprised that she actually put the time energy and effort into evening sending a message like that… nice to know she is still a fan i guess…
I’m just sitting here thinking… not really understanding but definitely wondering what went through her mind that said "MK should know how she feels, and I am going to be the one to tell her about it" The funnier part about it, is I have asked MK if she wanted to read my diary and she has said that she doesn’t not surprising… She started keeping a diary next to our bed, and at first wanted to read it but, I really dont. I trust that anything she wants to tell me she will share with me. And she generally does. We often talk about what we write in our diaries, which is nice. Keeping things open and honest. Besides a diary is a something you use to sort thoughts and is not necessarily exactly an organized place of thought, so someone else reading it might be really confused, or hurt.
I guess I just want to know why Felisha cares so much. I mean the last time I text her was like a month ago, and she made it seem like i text her last week, or even yesterday. I don’t even remember why I text her. I think just to talk actually. Who knows. I’m just glad the difference in this relationship is that conclusions are rarely jumped to and MK was not upset or mad just surprised.
On another note… MK and I just moved into out new place… its an interesting place. cheap but we are having a little bit of a hard time adjusting. but I was unpacking and I found my journal from Mexico. Summer 2007. What a dramatic summer that was. I was in between Felisha, and Christina. The back and forth in emails and facebook messages between them both just made me laugh. I’m glad I kept it… it reminds me of how much I have grown since then… and its pretty comical how serious some of those convos were. Glad Christina and I are still friend, and Felisha… well we know what happened with that… she’s facebooking my gf to read my journal which lately became a place to rant instead of a daily blog of my feelings and my day.
*sigh*
life is so surprising… everyday is something new.