nice dream

hey that last entry I think I wrote like 2 Monday’s ago… no clue why it didn’t save… but anyway 6 days left in Dublin… I am so excited to get back.. to my fiance to the sun… to the people that love me… not to m…. Dublin has given me hemorrhoid’s… literally

but anyway last night i had an awesome dream… it just woke me up in the best mood… I was in a relationship with Dondria… she’s a singer song writer… it was weird because these asian people were trying to kill us but we just had to have sex. so we waited until they were sleep and then when just made out… no sex… but it was so sweet… like we were both really into each other… it was a feeling that i haven’t felt in a while… not to say that i dont feel it with my fiance but its different… its lke a feeling in your chest that yo just can’t control… its so strong… I honestly felt it a lot with Felisha and i think that’s why it was so hard to let her go, but in this dream i had it with Dondria.. it’s weird… in a good way that i have finally stopped dreaming about Felisha… I think the last one actually wasn’t that long ago but it was like every other night.. and the weird part about it was that I wouldnt think about her much during the day… like i can think f days when i would go without thinking about her but at night she would be in the dream…

It was just a really nice dream to wake up to… nice to feel that connection… letting me know I am still capable of having those feelings that are so strong that they consume my whole being. In a way I miss that… I love my fiance and she makes me feel a way that I have never felt before… but its the feeling from this dream that I am used to feeling when I am in love with someone. it doesn’t make me second guess anything, it was just nice to be reminded of those feelings…