What am I?

I feel like a mix between a sex object and a stress ball.

I feel like we hardly talk. I feel like all he ever wants to do is have sex.

Is it so wrong to just not want to? I feel like the most worthless girlfriend ever. I cannot even persuade myself to be in the mood. I think half the time it is the pressure he puts on me to do it. So then I want to even less.

I miss the way we used to be before the whole uni depression thing. I want the old M back.
I have also put on weight. I seriously do not want to end up like my sisters. One of which is pretty over-weight.
Im sick of most things right now.

Have you ever thought to yourself,

I want to go home

When you are home? I thought that home woud be anywhere with M, it used to be, for me. But it isnt anymore. It’s not here in this house. It’s not with him.

God, I sound like such an emo.

JumpyJavaJawa

July 22, 2009

You should try talking to him, let him know how you feel. Maybe he’s just got into a rut and doesn’t notice. If things don’t change maybe it’s time to end things. You shouldn’t feel worthless because you don’t feel like having sex.

Rising Sun Roads

random from front page- i think that you need to talk things out with him and tell him without confrontation what you are feeling. i hope that you can work it out. *hugs* good luck. 😀

Comrade

You’re a human being, and most certainly not worthless. It’s natural not to want sex all the time. The closest I can come to explaining his behaviour is.. “He’s a guy.” (Which is about as helpful as phone with no battery. (My smilies are amazing.)) RYN: Geek? How did you figure that out!? Oh.. Well. I stand corrected. Get someone who isn’t depressing! (What a tip.) – James.

Kayee x

July 23, 2009

No, i didn’t write it, but thank you. =)

RYN: To be honest, I think that’s more worrying than me saying that I’m a stalker. Who is investigating me?! TELL ME NOW!! – James.

RYN: I think you should tell me who. =P – James.