Doctors suck

Yeah, so the suicidal friend wasn’t that suicidal and is feeling better now. It was really scary when I thought it had actually happened though.

Yesterday I had a tutorial, which went ok but only because i admitted I am stupid as mud and so she was practically going back to 1st year stuff. But she was nice.

Then I went to the hospital. I was carrying crutches since I was returning them for a friend while there. It’s really hard not using crutches but just carrying them. I was getting some strange looks. I got to the hospital after a long bus ride and returned the crutches eventually (the hospital is enormous), and then went to see the guy. He wasn’t there. Great!! So I just had to come home again having not seen him. What a waste of time and money.

Today I earned £5 in about 45 minutes by taking part in this experiment where I had to read these words out loud and say how many vowels they had in them. That was all fine.

I then instantly spent the money by getting Train and Daniel Bedingfield CDs out of the library and renting Thirteen and Black Hawk Down. I’ve just watched Thirteen and I’m glad I watched it on my own instead of with people. I almost broke down at the end of it. It kinda pointed out just how screwed up I am.

I have no motivation to do any work still, and the world seems somehow distant from me. It’s like I’m someplace else. I’m just drifting along.