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I got a text on Monday morning saying, "All your tests are clear", so I dont have an STD despite what the doctor had said. I’m guessing the symptoms must have been caused by the antibiotics i’d been given rather than by an STD, so no need to tell him anything. Plus i took a pregnancy test and i’m not pregnant either.

I didnt go to the ward round in the end. I emailed my consultant and told him i’m sorry but i’ve been going through some personal problems and found it hard to get motivated, but i hoped to do better. I saw him yesterday and he didnt really say much, just asked if i thought i was going to get over it anytime soon (not asking what "it" was), and i just said yes, although once again today i’ve done nothing. i dont think he’s very impressed with me but there’s not really much he can do.

my friend came to stay and stayed in my room unexpectedly. While nice to see her, it was a bit of an intrusion.

On monday i went for a walk by the river. We went out in the evening and almost ended up going out to london, but decided to leave it for sometime when we’d actually planned it.

I’ve been invited out to dinner tomorrow night.

This is a bit all over the place. i’m still very down in the dumps, cant think about much else than abuse, but there you go.