bleeding

So my period has come about 2 weeks early, which means I cant go to my GUM clinic appointment today.

I like my new diary colours. Apparently white text on a dark blue background is the easiest to read – easier than black on white.

Had an exam today, which you need 100% in so I have definitely failed, but i had emailed the course superviser beforehand to say i’ve been going through a difficult time, so if i fail there is a reason why. He emailed back to say wait and see how i’d done but he had noticed that i looked ‘ashen’ today.

My friends are very obviously worried about me so i’m just avoiding them where possible. i have nothing to say to them.

My parents also told me i was sounding depressed on the phone. They’re ringing again tonight to make sure i’m ok. I’d rather they didnt. They sent me a present from Edinburgh over a week ago apparently and it has not come, so it has obviously got lost in the post and they’re pissed off because it was apparently ‘not cheap’. I feel guilty for that. It’s be easier if i wasnt here to keep costing them money.

I feel guilty about eveything these days.