Bills, Rings and other things

I was really sick around Halloween, just days before my grandma died. Not only did I have 1, infection, but 2 infections! A UTI and a Viral infection which caused mesenteritis (inflammation of the fat surrounding your intestines).

Well three bills later, I owe $5,000.00. I have no insurance, I lost it when I got divorced. At the pharmacy, I was approaching FT status and it came down from the men upstairs, that no one, store wide would be able to gain FT status. So there went that chance for insurance.

Almost 4 months ago when I took the second job at the Lab, I knew it was temporary, which mean no benefits either, not even paid holidays.

Then today was just a really crummy day at the lab where nothing went right. So it got me looking at my situation and while my personal life is flourishing, my other part sucks. I am mad at myself for not having a better financial situation and not having a job in my field, let alone a job where I have insurance and security.

While the pharmacy may drive me nuts, I like most of my co-workers, like helping the customers and even have some favorites. However I don’t even make $9.00/hour and there looks like no chance to be FT or really grow much more than another $.75/hour raise.

With the lab, I feel like the Lab beeyotch. I am in charge of dumping the waste after the analysts tests and I have to bleach countertops. wash dishes and clean equipment. I thought yes, I have my foot in the door with a government agency. However everyone acts like they are better than others, they gossip like its elementary school kids and I really can’t trust anyone. The person I work directly "under" is a miserable woman. She has been in for 26 years, hates it now and hates what the governor is doing with state workers. She is a widow, one of her kids despises her and doesn’t talk to her, she’s just unhappy and complains ALL THE TIME. Which she brings to work and bitches about work stuff too. She talks out of both sides of her mouth and talks about everyone behind their backs.

I was supposed to find out about getting more hours, but like today and other days, I just don’t have enough to do. The lady I work under will not let me do anything to help her. She acts like I am trying to steal her job. Which I am not. She is bitchy all the time. I just feel like why bother? Don’t get me wrong the money is great, and I know I should be thankful for having a job, but is all this stress is burning me out.

On to other news, and good news. Nick is getting me a promise ring for X-mas 🙂 I helped picked it out and its soooooooo pretty!!!

Nick and I are about 85% done with shopping and we even got presents for his niece and my nephew’s birthdays.

Well I feel a lot better that I got to vent. Need to get ready and head to Nick’s.

L