What I Want

I want to be married and disgustingly, happily in love forever

I want Mark to remember birthdays and anniversaries and the silly little things that are still so important to me

I want to have blonde babies with beautiful blue eyes and Mark’s perfect nose

I want a fairy tale wedding

I want a perfect body (perfect in MY eyes)

I want to travel to Europe and Australia and Mexico and so many other places that my fear of flying prevent me from going to

I want to eat ice cream every day for the rest of my life

I want to stop regretting the abortion

I want to live in a warm climate and never see snow again (okay, maybe once in a while)

I want perfect Christmases

I want to be financially secure and pass that down to my children

I want to lead an active, fit lifestyle

I want the girlfriends I have now (Ashley, Jill, Ani, Val, Rachel, Katie, E, Katy, Marissa, Amber, Linds, and Jozie) to never go away

I want to be able to completely control my period (no more surprises!)

I want to have incredibly orgasms

I want to be a “hot 30 year old”

I want to still be flirted with and ogled over by boys/young men/older men and not feel bad about it

I want to go to a club and dirty dance

I want to drink expensive drinks in a posh bar and not care about the price

I want to whiten my teeth

I want the guys at the fraternity to like me…a LOT

I want to get through my undergrad years and know that I’m graduating with a degree that I absolutely love

I want to do volunteer work

I want to go to a graduate school that will make me the best person I can be

I want to definitively pick a religion for my life (or none at all)

I want to do fulfilling, interesting, incredible work

I want to be a stay at home mom

I want Mark to love me forever

I want to be treated like a princess at times

I want a huge diamond engagement ring

I want breakfast in bed

I want two cats and two dogs

I want a hot tub and a pool

I want an incredible, sexy honeymoon

I want to wear clothes that make me look great and make me feel great

I want sunshine in the morning and beautiful sunsets

I want a tight group of friends as an adult and to lead an active social life

I want to be loved unconditionally for the rest of my life by SOMEone

I want to be surrounded by love and laughter for the rest of my life

I want to be happy for the rest of my life

I want to make all of my dreams come true

I want Mark to have everything he has ever wanted and to be able to do everything he has ever wanted to do

I want to make Mark the happiest person I can make him

I want to cook for Mark

I want to be able to wear my hair up in a ponytail and look “cute”

I want these dreams to become a reality