Fell forward…to the past (?)(part 2)

Val and I stopped into the swim meet for a second. We heard Jozie sing the National Anthem, then I said hi to Emily. I took Val home, then went back to the meet. Talked to Emily again, and Margo. Sat with Ben, Luke, and Jeff. Margo did pretty well in her relay. 🙂 Also talked to Ashley and Elizabeth. I said to them, “I just realized how much I miss swim…” Ashley laughed, “No, you don’t.” 🙂 Silly girl. But I really do. I hate my knees. Swim was something I was actually good at…I had a rather mean freestyle time. But my legs can’t take the beating. So no more swim team for Jenni. And I miss it. I miss the bonding (although not having been on the high school team, I missed most of that), the exercise, and the meets. Especially the meets. And I just love being in a pool. I don’t know. Just one more thing I regret. But I enjoyed myself for that moment. I always enjoy hanging out with those three guys…guys I grew up with. 🙂 I can always fall right back into step with them.

Dinner was pizza, then I went to see Chris. We walked to the circle, went around it, then hung out at the park. And talked. I just tried to listen and be there for him in whatever way I could. With one previous relationship under my belt (and having been the dumper (but in some ways the dumpee, don’t ask, it’s confusing but true)), I’m not too great at relationship advice. Whatever. I tried my hardest.

Came home around 9 and Rachel and I went to Rock. We haven’t seen each other at ALL lately, so this was cool. We met Emily, Jane, Paul, Micky, Ani, Keith, Jeff, and…Mitch. 🙂 He’d left the game early to come with us. I found that really, really nice. After talking to Chris, I’d really needed my boyfriend at that moment. Just to have him be there so I could reassure myself he’s not going anywhere. I don’t know.

“O” is VERY good. I really loved it, and would see it again. One thing…anyone notice a lack of character development? There didn’t seem to be a…main character. Even Odin wasn’t really a main guy. Oh well. It was still great. Memorable beginning and ending.

Jane, Emily, Ani, Rachel, Keith, Mitch, and I goofed around in the parking lot for a while after that. Keith bit my head. We played football with my wallet. Jane chased Em with a pen. We just acted like general dorks. It was an immensely fun part of the evening. 🙂

Perkin’s was next on the list. Played with straw wrappers in water (Keith “drank” his napkin, too). Most of the football team came in. Odd to see those guys in a social setting…I don’t know why.

Afterwards was my favorite part of the evening. From 12:15 till about 12:40, Rachel and I cruised the circuit. And screamed and yelled. I let out something that I’ve wanted to just blurt out for about the past three or four months. And we tried to figure out what I should do. And as we “calmed down” and headed for home, another topic came up and we decided what I should do. Basically, it entails talking to Mitch. So I’ll be doing that soon. I love Rachel so much. We have no pretensions around each other, no feelings of being uncomfortable or awkward, and I feel very much myself around her. It was great to have some one-on-one time with her…since, as I mentioned, there’s been none of that lately. We might hang out after she’s done working tomorrow, but she might do something with Kim, and I really, really want to talk to him before I wimp out (or whatever).

Long, hot (then COLD!!) day…and a funny, seemingly drunken 🙂 night. I love my life…I just hate myself.

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