astronaut

you scare me more than i could ever tell you.  when i am shown these details about you and i see how you are becoming

just like them

i am afraid for you.  because coming from the mold was something you never wanted to do.  and it was something you never were.  you were this unique person that i could not compare to anyone.  you could not be categorized or ordered or confined

because you had no definition and no boundaries

it is why i loved you so much and why i still love you

in some distorted way

perhaps this will all turn out for the best and i will not have to fear for you anymore (though it is in no way my place to do so anymore).  i will simply have to give it time and trust you. 

although, ironically, trust is the one thing that i can no longer give you

so i will merely sit and wait