8/27/03

So I’m alone in the apartment. I’m not sure where Kourt is and Ty is at work. Mark spent the day/night yesterday and left a few hours ago. I miss him so much already – this year won’t be a question of “if” we will make it, but a challenge of “how” we will get through the times when we have to be apart. I really love this boy with everything I’ve got – and no one has any idea how emphatically I believed that I would never be able to love, or BE loved, again.

And it’s wonderful – because he never makes me feel stupid or silly (in a bad way) or worthless; instead, he makes me feel like the most important person in the world.

And isn’t that how your boyfriend is supposed to make you feel? Constantly wanted and appreciated and loved?

Yes, it is.

On my way to the SERF this morning, I watched the ant-like behavior of all of the incoming freshman, and I couldn’t help but smile a bit. I am so glad to be out of the dorms and into this cozy little space. To share a bathroom with only one person, to not have to attend floor meetings or eat in the cafeteria.

But then I saw Chad, and I smiled again. Because if I’d never lived in the dorms, I wouldn’t have met him – not as though we’re close friends or anything, but he was a fun, memorable part of my freshman year of college.

Sellery was a good experience – it got me involved, it made me independent and ready to REALLY and truly live on my own, and it introduced me to some of the funniest, sweetest, coolest people I know.

BUT THANK GOD FOR AC! 🙂