11/15/03

Still trying to quell the disgust that rises in my throat sometimes. When I see how pompous, how oblivious, how stuck on themselves they are. Everyone has periods in their lives, some short, some long, some barely a blip on the radar, when they are selfish – no one is exempt. It is part of that survival instinct. But when this selfishness sneaks outside of its boundaries and is hurled, point-blank, into others’ faces, then it is too much. When we are told we “live wrong, think wrong, ARE wrong,” then they have overstepped their bounds. To be so vain as to think that your ideas, your life, and your methods are the ultimate and only is unbelievably disheartening. I would even have to say that it makes me sad – because hearts are bruised, lives chipped, and ideas shattered because someone else chooses to be above them all.

And with the expulsion of these words, my slate is clean and blank. I feel much better.